“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.”
Such a strange saying. I always wondered even as a child why people used this sentence because it is an utter lie. Words have more of an impact than most incidents of physical abuse. Verbal abuse is extremely harmful. Most scars from physical abuse fade away but you carry away hurtful words with you your whole life. It leaves a mark on your heart and soul that can never be erased. It plays a big role in the person you become if it stems from childhood. Sadly, I don’t think the effects of verbal and mental abuse can ever be fully reversed.
What better time to start a blog than what feels like the busiest and most stressful time of my life. I need an outlet and seeing as I feel much more secluded from the world than ever why not let my thoughts and memories pour out like the ones contained within a pensive. Yes, that was a Harry Potter reference. There are several aspects of my life I am trying to change. People change easily, but I have learned making drastic changes within oneself requires determination. The last few months have taught me quite a bit about myself. For example, I’m stronger than I thought. But on the other hand, I must learn to overcome my fear of confrontation that I have built up over the last few years. Speaking up and expressing my thoughts has become harder since high school and I still struggle with demons of the past. I can say I believe in myself all that I want but I must prove it by actually seeing changes occur in my life.