Twin Flame

I had never heard of the concept of a twin flame until I started researching the strong passionate feelings for a soul I drifted across in my short life here on earth. Our relationship was turbulent towards the end due to our pasts and my preconceived thoughts on society. All worldly things came into play to destroy an epic romance. At the end of our physical time together here on earth he said “you act like a teenager.” He was right because I realized he brings out the inner child in me. Take a whirl wind of passion, add some inner child, and you have an emotional human who crossed the line one too many times. His soul emitted much love, child-like energy similar to myself, and lifted my spirits just by being in my presence. I only regret not having been spiritually evolved enough to make things go smoothly. Meeting him was fate, being with was a choice. I chose him and I always will. Here’s the downside. He can’t choose me because he has lost all faith in me and my words.

His soul sensed when I was not walking on earth. He was able to sense my selfishness, and stubbornness because I made those characteristics so apparent. I hope he has seen the love in my eyes. I hope he can feel my heart beat out of my chest for him. I hope he can feel my body temperature rise when I make any contact with him. I hope he can sense my care and compassion for him. All of these are things I should have made more apparent. I assumed our connection was stronger but we still needed time to reach that level. He cannot read my mind and my actions were not always clear or bold enough. This is the fault in our stars.

He was the most beautiful man I laid my eyes on. Ever micro-expression, every micr0-movement, I noticed it all. My eyes had never lingered on anyone so long nor had I ever paid attention so intently. I wanted to photograph him. He was a work of art. A drug. I am so thankful to have created memories and shared experiences that will last a lifetime. The last few hours with him were some of the most painful yet I felt a gratitude because I was able to spend a few more seconds on earth with him.

I have no choice but to begin a spiritual journey alone now that my lower self has pushed him away to the point of no return. Today was the death of me and my ego. My thoughts finally destroyed what could have been a magical future. My journey is not just for myself, but for my twin flame. Weather we are destined to be together in this lifetime or not, I want to control and emit the most powerful positive vibrations to send his way. Nothing would make me happier than to heal him and see him smile. I also know by learning to connect with my inner self, I will be in a better position to connect with him. That is, if being with him is in our stars.

California Dreaming

Moving to California was something I dreamed about in high school. My high school resembled a jail. I mean I’m pretty sure it was one in the 1980’s. At least that’s what the rumors were. I was miserable half the time due to the weather alone, and the whole teenage angst thing. I remember saying to myself when walking to class, “Why am I not in California? Paradise….I’m going to make it there someday.” I did not apply to any jobs in Michigan because my intention was to get out. Getting a job here was written in the stars. California called my name and nothing felt more right than moving here even though at times I got home sick and I do miss my family each and every day. I was ready for this change though. California life is a lot more laid back. The work environment, the people, I mean you have to be laid back to put up with all that LA traffic right? This is the place for dreamers, and doers. There is always something exciting going on. Michigan is all movie theatres and malls. California is every outdoor activity you could imagine, as well indoor classes Michigan does not offer. I know because I checked. California is a health conscious state and that’s exactly the kind of lifestyle I want to lead. There are great people out here, but some stereotypes about the Beverly Hills snobs, and plastics, which is true. A lot more people here care about their looks and show off their money and throw big names around. I work a lot and am busy exploring on weekends so those people don’t phase me. Everyone else I have had the pleasure of meeting is welcoming, open minded and wonderful. I wouldn’t mind staying here although I do plan to travel around. I’m not sure my lungs could take all the smog, which is a downside I suppose. There is a lot more diversity in culture and people here compared to Michigan, which I really appreciate.

Rodeo Dr.

Rodeo Dr.

Joshua Tree National Park

Joshua Tree National Park

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Good Vibes

Each person we meet truly serves a purpose in shaping our lives.

If our thoughts really vibrate into the universe and leave us with just that then why can I not force positivity?

True moments of happiness are rare. Every time I feel joy I try so hard to hold on to it that it only slips away faster. If only I learned to create it at all times. The thoughts I am emitting into the universe are not positive. I suppose I can begin to consciously be aware of my negative ones….

I could spend the whole day doing that to be completely honest.

Are your thoughts more negative or positive?

Pay attention for a few hours and you may just be surprised.

 

 

Illusion

All experiences in this world are simply an illusion created by the universe. Relationships are a figment of our imagination. Brief moments we force our minds to believe the lie that we have friends. Friendship does not exist. That sounds negative seeing as I do have a couple close friends but those were rare finds. Even then, we are our own selfish individuals to some extent.

I have opened myself up to people multiple times only to find out their ulterior motive. It’s all about the gains. Selfishness. Most of my “friends” pretended to be my friends to make personal gains. I’m sure I’m guilty of doing this however, that is not what I consciously set out to do. Actually that’s a lie. Ask yourself this. Why do I want to have a friend? Because it makes us feel good right? It makes us happy. That answer right there proves we are all in it for something. Here I thought people were genuinly nice and welcoming. Silly ole me. We’re all playing into an illusion to create a sense of belonging. That is why, with a heavy heart, I say friendship does not exist.

My Top Spots in SoCal

If I ever have a friend in town this is where I take them. The best of the best in my opinion.

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The Standard Hotel. Who doesn’t love a hip hotel with a rooftop pool? You don’t have to stay here to visit. Also, be cautious of private parties and cover charges on the weekends.

 

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Runyon Canyon. Don’t just park anywhere or you’ll get a $73 ticket. It hurts.

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Drive along PCH. That’s Pacific Coast Highway. Top down, and let the beauty of the moment take your breath away.

 

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Enjoy a brunch with a view of the beach, or get a decedent chocolate soufflé in the evening. The soufflé pictured is from Off Vine located in Hollywood CA.

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Surf City USA or Huntington Beach CA. Experience some of the best waves in the country or at least be a witness of the surf culture SoCal has to offer.

 

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My number 1 favorite spot is hands down the Griffith Observatory. Pictures don’t do this justice at all. This is something I urge you to see in person. It’s like looking at a painting. Blows my mind every single time.

 

The nightlife in Cali is phenomenal as well. Blvd 3 on Sunset serves chocolate covered strawberries and fresh tacos. Supperclub and Playhouse on Hollywood blvd are very close and popular spots as well. I never run out of things to do in California. Thankful for the time I have had here so far.

Celestial Boomerang

The universe answers questions and let’s a few secrets escape unexpectedly. It answers questions you didn’t even ask and tells you tales that become your very own. My mind is open very wide now after what feels like an eternity. I think differently. We all do. Some in stranger ways than others. I’m thankful to be able to explore myself, and gracefully remove these layers. That is what makes me happy in life. I can’t explain the happiness I’m feeling, the bliss. I truly have a gypsy soul. I’ve always known this.

Drifting souls

Just as our thoughts and actions vibrate into the vast universe, others souls drift in and out of our lives moving, bending, and expanding our views.

I believe everything happens for a reason. Always have. It may be a brief moment in time. It could be one weekend or even one day. But that minuscule time in space can create a domino effect. This is why I like meeting new people.

It’s difficult making friends when you move to new places. I suggest finding connections through hobbies, cultural background, etc. After moving to California and meeting new people I have learned it truly does not matter how long you have known someone. You can feel just as close to people you just recently met if there is a connection. There is no minimum time requirement for creating bonds. Open your heart and let the world breathe you in.